I have some severe issues with aging.

First of all, my brain doesn't work properly anymore. I've heard it said that menopause sucks the nouns right out of your head. The saying is correct. I'm already challenged in the area of speaking, having a bit of a stutter that translates to longer pauses between words. Add to that the flushing of all the blood in my body to my face, looking like my head will explode any minute. And then the loss of nouns tops the whole thing off with a flair that can only be referred to as nihilistic.

And of course, I agonize over anything I say or don't say for weeks, sometimes months, and in a few cases, years. It can elicit a groan and a slap to the forehead, seemingly out of the blue... I get curious sidelong glances from strangers, when this happens in public.

I can't get over how I think my blundering statements might matter to anyone else, though. Do I think myself that special, that those around me will jot down my utterances, for future reference? Full of myself, aren't I?